EMYJIA

Saturday, 30 March 2019

MY BENIGN FIBROADENOMA BREAST STORY PART 1

First of all, for those never come across this word. 

F.I.B.R.O.A.D.E.N.O.M.A

 is common benign , not cancer. Approximately a lump, foreign grow in breast which can be happen to women in any age, especially young age women.
Don’t panic went you discover a lump in breast , just went to nearest clinic or hospital for further check up.

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Everything should start with one touch…ehhhh(sound weird). Basically, October known as October Pink, definite awareness of ladies  regarding the breast cancer.  As I m in this medical line career, commonly educate patients about breast related disease. Never think of one day I will become one of them.
Neither lucky of nor. I discovered a small lump on left breast. Tiny lump, not big enough to get my attention.  It grow in size within few weeks. This started to thrill me.

I took half day off. I came to front of Wellness Centre , meet with our staff doctor.
“The small lump… Can be mammalia glands, tissuess, or nerve. Can be the subcutaneous layer…..”a voice was calming myself while another voice whispering in me. 
“It doesn’t make sense when it’s was only appear in left breast. Possible of breast …cancer..????!!!!” 

My body  reflected with a small shivering. Not sure its because of the air-con too cold., or  frightened. 
Staring at the television on wall with “Net Geo Wild ” Program, my mind was rafting with all those scenes in those typical tear gland stimulated Korean drama. 

"The summary would be, a poor girl with incurable disease and boyfriends holding the hand on bed. Family was broke collecting money for high medical cost, and selling property…………….." 
(Forgive my  good imagination)
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“Emy ******* .”
“Patient Emy *******” my name was repeated for twice. 
My mind was pulled back to reality, little rushing steps toward the room.The nurse showed unpatience face. 
The sound of clock running on wall made my heart raced fast that I never before. I had entered this room for few times regarding the patient’s prescription , but today was so different. Extremely nervous, worry , with mixing of emotion inside of me. I entered the room and sit down. 
“So. What make you come today ?”  The doctor turned to me, she lifted her eyebrow and asking in soft calm tone.
I think she noticed my face was so freaking pale.  I  explained how I discover a lump on my breast. She nodded and ask me some questions. I know what she will asked :

The common question doctor concern     
-Family history
-Sign and symptoms
-Diet and life style 
-Marriage status

*Young age of 20 with  clean family history , good lifestyle  and diet , single status. All those answer enough to void myself from breast cancer suspect.* 


EXTRA INFORMATION : 

There was high percentage of lump or cyst formation in breast for women. The cyst is fluid in breast , possible to disappear or can reduce size by own immunization system. The lump can be in pea size till few inches. The lump that rubbery, movable, soft and pain normally was benign, no cancer. While if you have those hard , no pain and attached with tissues(unmovable) is can be bad sign of cancer. Still further diagnosis should be done by those professional.


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Still everything just a positive guess from doctor. I was asked to laid on the bed, rolled up my shirt . The doctor was practicing the breast self check on me. Her hand with glove was checking on both of my breast carefully in clockwise and anticlockwise direction. The doctor with her serious face, pressing on my tiny breast with kinda strength.
  “With that strength, either  my tiny breast  will be shrink, or swollen soon” I whispered in myself.
Once she located the position of lump. She wrote me a long report refer me to specialist doctor (breast surgeon), further diagnosis should be done. I was told to do my ultrasound. When I was waiting in the X-ray department, I was playing with cute kid and it make me relax by not thinking about anything else .

An incident actually was breaking my just gained calm.


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