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Saturday 15 May 2021

COMPLETED PRP. I M NOW FRP

I wrote this like 1 years ago when I done my PRP , I actually realized this post when I m “cleaning” my laptop. 

Well this explained why this post only uploaded now
 

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Date : 21/4/2020

Finally , It’s like so finally , I get through all this damn shit.

Well, hectic life took over me, cant even have much time to spent on my hobby= Blogging .

Hurry up congrats me, A BIG GOOD NEWS that your …this superb clumsy sister just completed her PRP recently.

<Upgrade to FRP>

 

*For the one wasn’t pharmacist student,as brief explanation

PRP = Provisional Registered Pharmacist.

FRP = Fully Registered Pharmacist

 

( A big advise from me as senior , please pass your forensic as fast as possible) Don’t be like me , wasted my time waiting 8 months. I should have get my placement faster. Student from oversea (just neighbourhood Indonesia ) like us , had been totally lost contact with updating info

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I M THINKING FEW INTEREST TOPIC FOR SHARING.
 “HOW MUCH OF SHITING THINGS I MEET DURING MY PRP”
“MY TERRIBLE MISTAKE DURING PRP”
“HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES DUIRNG PRP”
“HOW MY LITTLLE SOUL WAS CRUSHED AGAIN AND AGAIN…..”
“MY DEEP HEART COMFESSION”
 
<WOULD YOU GUYS INTEREST ABOUT?>

 

I think those entry would be much interesting than this...

 (KINDLY PRESS THE LINK BELOW TO READ MORE >....< )

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Life like a ball can be up and down sometimes. But I was wondering why my life always down along this one year (Depressed )

After my graduation , really looking forward my working life. With the tittle of unemployed ,it annoyed me whenever my uncle /aunt come across their favorite question : “ Why don’t you find a work ? ”

Looking forward those luxury life after earning , waving my bank card without thinking of price. Well, reality always hit on you cruelly , slapping and wake u from your daydream.

Once I get a job , my realized the burden on me gaining in same time. 

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How was PRP life?

Hmmmm….for me. How terrify it can be? It was terrify from rumors and ITS FREAKING REALL !!

Not mean to terrify you , just warn all of u to really get yourself on with those weapons, knowledge , mental and stamina , protection suit well on before get in this war. If not , You will get K.O , shotted down, not knowing what happened.

Another words suit well , CHALLENGING. High expectation from senior or FRP or boss. Deep apologize from me to them, 

"I KNOW I LET YOU GUYS DOWN"

I m jus a damn clumsy always getting scold for confusing and careless mistakes. 

Getting a bit excited when patient actually mistaken you as doctor. Hihihi . For them , person in labcoat always doctor. Maybe you will correcting patient for first, but after few times you might just used to it and let it be. Feeling gooood ^…^


Ever heard “ your study life will end by the time graduate”. When you struggle so much and finally graduated, then u realize its was just beautiful lie.

 PRP life definite as those sleepless night , deep eyes bags, lacking sleep, no more TGIF, overtime on weekend, stress off with those assignment , rushing presentation slide deadline…ect. WORK …WORK…WORK…no life , The only different with those university times is you get pay for it.

 Like salesman, we had our very own quota or …can know it as “TARGETs” to achieve for each month, each rotation. All of us , PRPs , we tend to be aggressively struggling to get patients in order to complete those requirements. If you slow , perhaps the patients grabbed by the other.

Not to mentions we had tasks to complete every rotation, presentations, lot of guidelines/ books / journal to study. Fail of completing the tasks might need to repeat task again / get scolds / get low marks. The worst would be repeat the particular rotation again.

 

Let me give a simple example :

Validation is a task we need to full fill in order to proceed counseling task. The problem is,the spectrum is wide and much out of my tiny brain. Let me give you an example make it more clear for u guys.


Inhaler technique validation

You think its only about those inhaling technique? No no no its wrong . It can goes far till the guideline of cpg copd an asthma. Everytime I will prepare myself mentally and physical facing those “m16 gun” like bullets questions which goona hit hard against me. No matter how much I study , I still get stucked in validation. Because the questions always unexpected and sometimes can find in books, impressed by those outstanding / extraordinary question.

 Helpless feeling of mine when I finally get well prepared , study overnight , but end up delayed. Reason, preceptor busy, on leave or they simply not in mood to do so. While the date task submition was getting so near.

Pharmacist life, lifeless. Its all about “ Work and work work work….When ever we complaint about how stress we are. I should grateful as doctor double than us.

I found uploading blog psychologically calmed me, stress releasing . Everyone have their very own way to release tensions. 


BARE in mind, a good PRP is the one good in stress managing , time managing and multitasking. 

Take it as an process to path of success, it take times but worth it. 


Wednesday 12 May 2021

Resignation letter

A huge decision , I made.

This wasn’t a sudden decision of mine. Actually  it took me quite long time and huge braveness to take out this step. 1 months before I end my contract , these came in my mind , hunt me in long long night. I do hesitate when my parents were against me.

I did a list of advantage and disadvantage , and included all those future…life ..ect. Later I will tell u more. Conclusion , 

I decided to CONTINUE MY SERVICE  RESIGN

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When I m typing my resign letter, unexpectedly I felt peace and relief. Wasn’t as sad or as hard as I thought this will be . Of course I will definitely miss my co worker here , just wanna let them know

 “U guys are the best, Thank you for all this time , those tears and sweats moments. Hope I dint cause much trouble along this while


Everyone must be curios why m I choosing this path ? 

My family was shock when I told them , but they respect my decision.  My boyfriend is an awesome man, he is a good lister and supporter , that make me feel fearless and worry less toward my upcoming challenges.

 Love him so much !!

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Isnt good to be Hospital Pharmacist? A little tiny bit in mine, I have a great ambitious enough to be a clinical pharmacist before, then why I m giving up this time? I make a list of reason for leaving and arrange them in order of priority.


Lets list out the advantages of being a Hospital Pharmacist in government.

  • Secure , Stable job
  • Good pay of  salary (Yearly increment)
  • Medical benefit personally and family
  • Fixed working time (Sometime Oncall or night shift)
  • Nice working environment and friendly co worker
  • 25 days of  Annual leaves / year
  • I mastered it well 

Isn't the pay better in private ? That's what I thought before. Reality hit me when realized private pay wasn’t as good in government. (This might apply only for Sabah , as I did survey some part of Semenanjung retail offered quite good salary)

 

Then why?

Generally , people leave their jobs for certain reason.

My reason is simple , I m looking for 

"Better career prospects, professional growth , new challenges..ect."

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Back to the story,

Ever you felt lost when keep repeat the same routines everyday. I tried to be more productive , I read those books, guidelines, and journals... still I feel something missing, my passion is missing gradually. Perhaps we tend to slow down or stop our steps in comfort zone. Yeah this  just too comfort till I m getting lazy. These is good  for someone , instead me.

 

I whispered to myself ,

“I think its time, its time for me to jump out of this comfort zone!!  When if not now?”

I took the courage. In the same time, give myself a chance to see this world in another perspective.

Never expect this path would be easy. Lets take it as an opportunity to see how far I can fly when I m still young (Not that young), at least before my age of 30 , before I m settle down and moving to another phase in life. After wedding / become a mummy, I might not bold enough to bare with failures.

 


“Inside of this little girl , have a dream”

 I have a dream , a dream to own a pharmacy. If stay in government will not help me to get closer my dream, then I choose to leave.


Lot of them tend to say , Its hard. But how hard?
Everyone told me PRP was hard, but I survived.
People told FRP was much disaster , and I m fine.
Human told its impossible ,
My attitude is 

“I have nothing to lose”

 

Yes I get myself new job, a retail pharmacist.  A whole new things, new job scopes, new environment..ect awaiting me to discover it. I m kind of overwhelmed and a bit of excited looking forward.

 

< 1 step forward and 99 steps more to go >

Guys, wish me doing all well in my new job. I will update more when I m free.


< 21 April 2019 - 10 May 2021>

END OF MY GOVERNMENT SERVICE  : )